I'm sitting on my couch listening to the rain and I thought to myself "I really need to send an email out, despite my lack of words" So here I am typing up an email. (yes I copied and pasted this email to my blog...hehehe) Lack of words because not too much has changed since the last email (or post?) and I've come to a point where not talking about it is much easier than talking about it. I know that's not a good excuse for lack of communication, but that's the truth.
I hope you're all doing well, let me start with saying what a blessing you've been to me! I appreciate every email of encouragement, every moment you stop and pray for me and the Aus campus ministry, every joke about how you too want me to get outa here! Haha. I truly do and I LOVE that you have taken Romans 10:14-15 seriously by asking me questions.
Ok what I've been doing lately. Before the first part of my visa was approved a wonderful staff lady suggested I get involved with a local campus ministry here. Then when the first part of my visa was approved we waited in hopes of a quick departure. After I found out I had to resend my FBI background check for the second part of my visa we decided to move forward with getting me involved in CalState Fullerton's Cru. (which is campus ministry like what I'll be doing in Oz)
I started campus ministry two weeks ago for three days a week. In a nut shell, I partnered with the intern at CSUF and sat in on her mentoring sessions, talked to RA's and went to prayer meetings. The first day I went on campus I was excited to be involved in campus ministry. It's been encouraging to be around the staff and talk about the frustration of still being here while being sensitive to the Spirit's daily leading. Honestly, it's been tough knowing that it's not permanent and being completely sure that God has called me to Australia yet this is where He has me. I continue to hold on to Jeremiah 29:11, as cliché as it sounds, because it is God's truth and completely relevant. I thought it would be a breath of fresh air to be doing campus ministry but the combination of explaining to people over and over again about why I'm still here and being partially involved at a campus has been draining emotionally and physically. I'm still heart broken and I imagine that I'll experience this when I get to Australia as well, because it's normal to experience during a transition.
In the midst of frustration, heart break, and exhaustion God is faithful to teach me,though. God is faithful to bless me with the wise words of Melanie (a missionary whose been a huge encouragement) with the always true always alive words of the Bible and with His Spirit. I'm waiting on Him with a new understanding of how needy I truly am and it's amazing to continue to see the depths of God's grace in a new light. I love the Lord more and more each day as I'm reminded of why I'm going to Australia.
As far as logistics, I've called the FBI to check the progress of my background check I do not know when it'll be finished processing so I don't know when I'll be leaving. The plan is to continue to call them every couple days in hopes of speeding things up or at the very least being in the know about what's going on. In the mean time if any of you want to know more about either the ministry I'll be joining or more details about what's going on currently with me please feel free to email, or call me with questions. I know a lot of times I jump around trying to cover everything with out sending a long email so let me know how I can clarify or if they're too long haha ;D
"I am still confident of this; I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." -Psalm 27:13-14
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